Not to blame Lady Gaga, but it is ALL her fault. (aka it’s definitely not my fault for not backing up the entire contents of my computer a few weeks ago when I backed up a few selective things from my desktop that were merely taking up space. aka, the unimportant, big files. things that didn’t really matter.) Why didn’t I just simply drag that big, beautiful “ALL” folder onto the external hard drive icon? Why? Why?y WHY!?! ohhhh MADDIEEEEEE. YOU ASS head!

Ok well it goes a little something like this. Wednesday morning. I woke up. feeling cranky and grumpy. I think I actually cited that in my post…”wrong side of the bed…”… I felt so unproductive and so not into doing any of my morning routine computer stuff at all… which is unusual. It was like my big fat instincts were saying, “Madds… just don’t  use your laptop today. just don’t.” So.. after some sort of higher power warned me that something funky was going on with my computer, I went and used it.

I surfed the ‘net a bit… did some time on Perez. bored out of my mind, but not having the inspiration or energy to do the usual morning routine that goes like this… catch up and check in on… OH MY GEMINI, Our Bridgeport, LOVEMADDS, Nicky Digital STYLE… and some other projects that are still a secret. shhh.

So then I watched Lady Gaga’s new vid, Alejandro, which I won’t link to out of fear that it will cause your hard drive to crash, I thought for a moment about how much it sounds like a Real McCoy song that I was obsessed with during my days at Muscoot Farm Camp (yeah we mucked the stalls, made candles, fed animals, baked with fresh eggs.. all of that weird stuff)… Anyways, there was Real McCoy and Ace Of Base. you know what I’m talking about? I was obsessed with both…moving on…  And then I saw a video on Perez about Salma Hayek losing her mind over a snake during an interview.

It was immediately after my curious mind forced me to click on that link that my comp just froze. stayed frozen. for a while. still stayed frozen for a while… and then shut off. and then started making clicking sounds. All I heard from the other side of the room was…”That is not good”. I was like- whatevs. I figured my computer was tired. I turned it on, and after a few really violently scary clicking sounds, it turned on… only, it wasn’t the normal desktop picture of Jord and me swinging on our swings… my beautifully laid out and perfectly organized folders were long gone… instead, this is what i saw. blinking…. also known as the end of the world.

After giving Jordo some ‘tude about the fact that he didn’t drop everything and give my Macbook Pro CPR, I called Apple Care to learn that our 3 year plan ran up in APRIL, and then started crying on the phone with the Rep… which was awkward, to say the least. I handed the phone over to Jord, and began mourning the loss of just about every project ever since 3 years ago. music, logos, artwork, images of my jewelry that took countless hours to edit… ohhh THE GOOD NEWS: I had backed up my photos recently. THANK LORDY! OMGEEE. That would have slipped me right into depression if I hadn’t. geeze. And somewhere in the back of my sad, little mind, I thought… Well, at least this will make an interesting post.

So. There was, according to Mrs. Apple care, a few ounces of hope that if we went to the Apple store they’d be able to revive my harddrive and all that good stuff. Long story short, I went to the Apple store almost 24 hours later and although they were awesome and so helpful, nothing worked. My little hard drive shall RIP. It was also a bit uncomfortable when my eyes welled up at the suggestion to use a data recovery person that can cost up to thousands of buckeroos. So great. ps. as I’m writing this post, I’ve saved it almost 30 times already, even though it auto saves.

So last night when I got home I felt like there was nothing left to do other than dress fully in black, eat chocolate covered almonds (thank you, dear Ana) in front of the TV and cry my eyes out as I recounted all of the little things I lost with the death of my harddrive.

After I mourned for 72 hours, I came to the realization that it’s all good in the hood. PLUS- I should really just shut up because I have a desktop (that has nothing on it).. but at least that means I don’t have to worry about buying a new computer. for now, at least. You’re all probably like OMG you’ve had a desktop this whole time, biotch?!

I gotta give it to Jordy. He cheered me up, talked some computer lingo sense into me, made me realize it’s not the end of the world…

What have I learned?

1. Constantly backup. Like, no excuses.
2. Count your blessings.. what I lost is just STUFF. I have all of the things that are really important
3. don’t ask. just seemed like the right image
4. Happiness, Health, Family, Friends, and all that other good stuff is way more important than bookmarks and music. It totally sucks big time, but at least it forced Jordy to take some time and back up his computer, which is home to his livelihood, SumoWebWorks. shameless plug.
5. Expect the worst so that you don’t start crying and make a scene at the Mac store. You never want to be that girl. (I almost was, but wasn’t.)
6. Losing a four paragraph message on facebook by accidentally hitting backspace is nothing to punch the wall about.
7. Chocolate covered almonds and a good episode of Intervention will almost instantly make you feel 100% better about your life.
8. Always listen to those instincts. They’re really smart.

So, with all of that being said, jordalicious is currently setting me up with a new work area downstairs (I’m using his fabulous desktop at the mo). I am excited about making that corner of downstairs into my office, so that my upstairs desk space can be fully devoted to my sewing machine, surger, YuDu, jewelry stuff, and fabric! (Trying to look on the bright side here- throw me a bone)… I’ll post some pics as soon as my new desk area is complete.

And lastly- what are you waiting for?!?! GO BACK UP! NOW! Go on! Do it!

Well, Jordaloonious just hollered up to me that OSX installation is complete. here I go… The beginning of a new journey on a new computer. ta ta for now! xo